As this year starts to draw to a close, I realize that I created this blog with the greatest of intentions to get it up and running, but didn't do so. I started to think of all the projects, all the resolutions I made this year and how many of them actually got done. More so, how many went by the wayside even after good intentions of doing them. You know, the 'I'm going to lose xx pounds', 'I'm going to find that perfect job', or 'I'm going to be a better person' kind of thing.
I started to wonder if they really meant anything. Yeah, losing weight would be ideal; I could stop wearing my 'fat' pants. Getting that perfect job - well who doesn't want that? As for being a better person, the world would be a MUCH better place if we could all be that better person. Yet, I couldn't help but feel as though I failed just a little bit by not doing any of these things.
On the flip side, I have learned much about myself in this past year. That no matter what happens and how many punches that life throws me, I still get back up and try to fight. That I am loved even when I think I'm not. That I didn't 'lose' my faith, I just stopped practicing it. I learned even more about love, life and family than in any other period of time in my life. I learned that I need all three make me a very happy gal and that I need them in my life more than I ever thought.
I don't consider myself a failure today which is a far cry from a few weeks ago, when I was in a different place. I know that I'm a child of God and that HE loves me, so I should love myself too. So now I'm getting back to the other things - those little resolutions that I never got around to - the losing weight, finding that job and I'm still working on being a better person, helping others, but mostly helping myself when I help others.
One baby step at a time, one day at a time. So here's to 2014 and all the wonderful things that are going to come with a new year. :)
I started to wonder if they really meant anything. Yeah, losing weight would be ideal; I could stop wearing my 'fat' pants. Getting that perfect job - well who doesn't want that? As for being a better person, the world would be a MUCH better place if we could all be that better person. Yet, I couldn't help but feel as though I failed just a little bit by not doing any of these things.
On the flip side, I have learned much about myself in this past year. That no matter what happens and how many punches that life throws me, I still get back up and try to fight. That I am loved even when I think I'm not. That I didn't 'lose' my faith, I just stopped practicing it. I learned even more about love, life and family than in any other period of time in my life. I learned that I need all three make me a very happy gal and that I need them in my life more than I ever thought.
I don't consider myself a failure today which is a far cry from a few weeks ago, when I was in a different place. I know that I'm a child of God and that HE loves me, so I should love myself too. So now I'm getting back to the other things - those little resolutions that I never got around to - the losing weight, finding that job and I'm still working on being a better person, helping others, but mostly helping myself when I help others.
One baby step at a time, one day at a time. So here's to 2014 and all the wonderful things that are going to come with a new year. :)
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